after you gone.

and all the posts in here seems useless, wordless, and meanless now.

the way of love goes

Girls are taught a lot of stuff growing up. If a guy punches you he likes you. Never try to trim your own bangs and someday you will meet a wonderful guy and get your very own happy ending. Every movie we see, Every story we're told implores us to wait for it, the third act twist, the unexpected declaration of love, the exception to the rule. But sometimes we're so focused on finding our happy ending we don't learn how to read the signs. How to tell from the ones who want us and the ones who don't, the ones who will stay and the ones who will leave. And maybe a happy ending doesn't include a guy, maybe... it's you, on your own, picking up the pieces and starting over, freeing yourself up for something better in the future. Maybe the happy ending is... just... moving on. Or maybe the happy ending is this, knowing after all the unreturned phone calls, broken-hearts, through the blunders and misread signals, through all the pain and embarrassment you never gave up hope. 

Poetry-_-

This may sound discordant

I'm not that type of girl who can make a poetry

But I can't hold this mouth to tell you something

Something that you don't want to hear

Sometimes I made you annoyed

Sometimes I don't listen to your advice

Sometimes I made a stupid mistake

Sometimed I made you sad and blue

But you should know, I do every effort to make you happy

Sing a happy song to make you laugh

Tellin'you funny stories, so there I can see a smile

Chocolate bar or cupcakes, so that's how you know it

I don't mean literally.. But dear, it's feeling show

It's to tell you how you changed me

How you treat me

How you show me the way of life, how to live this life with no regret

And how to wake up from the fall

Pardon me

I'm not as perfect as you want

Until there's no moonbeam

Until the stars stop to glow above

I will be still like this

My love still go on shinning

It's like my heart go on beating

It's like the sea rush to shore

It's like sunlight that penetrate your window room

I....love you;)

oh poor you

hiiiiiiii copycat, i love to see you removed me from your facebook. so, i won't mind about you in anytime. yeah uh i'm lil'bit tired to hear you bought a new hermes bag. im still waitin for your new update, your status, and your new photos. better you treat me that tricks, how to copycat someone style til you got herself on your obsessed mind, at all. xoxo

Pulang Puhhleaaase;(

It's been 5 days, I'm stuck in here. In where? In Jakarta. With nothing to do, and my peeps still busy-ing with their own school job. I went to here, went to there.. How can I pretending my live if it's roll by like a plate of hot sexy Mayonnaise dream roll?-lebay. HhhwwwwWWWWWWww I want sushi, sushi may kill this bored(DUM!) feeling. What do I tell my self if my body grow like zeppelin? Finally, I only sat at home and doing absurds activity. My boyfriend? He's gone, Bali took him away. I hate that, he doesn't texting or calling me or what. Like I'll never see him again, fufu I'm lonely here. Eh Ups, but but yesterday he texted me

yaaang maaf ya kmrn2 dicuekin:( jarang megang hp soalnya. aku ga ngambek kok yaang,tenang aja:) mmmuuaah i love you

Hiyalo siapa yg ngira lu ngambek emgnya mestinya gue neng yg ngambek. Ah god please after that he never texting me again. NICE BOY, AAAAAAAAAAAAAWWWRRGGGHHHH emosi gue. Oke emg ya gue sms dia gt malem(tadinya mau nelfon cuma batrenya udah lowww so oww bgt). Tapi ga di di di bales2, oh yasudahlah biarin saja. Hmm mungkin dia lagi....lagi clubbing gitu ya di Kuta. Trs lagi dancing2 di dancefloor sama cewek2 bali nan sexy2 itu. Please stop it, ga lah farr ga mungkin-____- aduh tapipipipi itu mungkin bangeeeeeet:'( hu tau ah bt.

And theeen I wanna ask him to go out, sebenernya sih nonton pensi tugasku tp sudah dapat ditebak dia bakal bilang "Liat ntar ya.." trs dia ga ngabarin gue sampe hari H dan melupakan ajakan gue(soalnya ga pernah di bahas2 lagi) biasanya sih gitu-.- Tapi masa siih buat nonton adeknya sendiri tuh Deya, he don't want to accompany me? Mudah2an mau yaaaa.. aduh gatau deh lagi pusying yoo byebye

Post it.

We are not having good communications if we are busy or one of us is busy, like now. Well I've been texted him about a few hours ago, and GOOD, he do not reply it yet. It's normal, but i miss him so much. Especially in fact, he will go to bali on sunday, "a study tour", he said. But I wonted with it, it's really kinda normal thing in our relationship. Yeah, 8 months roll by, I've been learning so many things about him, about us. And of course, about this relationship. That's great, I love and enjoyed this so much. We only had conversation at night, and at that point we will share about what we've got today. But I love that time yea I love conversation time, It's a ding-dong time haha we loves to play something via cellphone. Like words game or cute joke, maybe guessing game til midnight. And after that he would share something to me, his secrets. Boy's secrets, something that no one has to know. Only me and him, so do I. I will tell him about my problems, sometimes til I get down and cry. And he can't iron out my tears hahaha yeaa ganen can't handle if someone crying. That's sweet. And then he will say goodnight to me then kiss me from the distance. And I'll kiss him back. 

Like what he told me, "We are best friend with love in it".

The Unpredictable You

Lately you have been asking me
if all my words are true
Don't you know I'll do anything for you 

Sometimes I haven't been good to you
Sometimes I've made you cry
And I am sorry for everything 

but I promise you girl
I promise you this 

When the blue night is over my face
on the dark side of the world in space
When I'm all alone with the stars above
you are the one I love 

So there's no need to worry girl
My heart is sealed for you
And no one's gonna take it away 

cos' I promise you girl
I promise you this 

Your voice is calling to me in my dreams
My love is stronger than it's ever beens

When I'm all alone with the stars above
you are the one I love 

MLTR - Blue Night

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